A Little Further Down The Rabbit Hole: Part 8

After having my son Syfy, I had become completely attached. I was starting to tell myself that maybe I did not need the surgery, but I deep down I knew that I was just filling my head with delusions to cope with the situation. The thought of having to leave my infant for two whole […]

A Little Further Down The Rabbit Hole: Part 7

Reeling from the miracle that I had been given (in the previous post), I had no idea just how much one little baby could totally change my path in life. As I went through surgery after surgery, I hadn’t really been given the chance to figure out who I really was outside of the girl […]

A Little Further Down The Rabbit Hole: Part 6

It’s funny what can happen when you close your eyes and mentally will a miracle to happen, but forget to be specific about the miracle that you are looking for. If there is one thing that I have learned over the years, it’s to be very specific in what you ask for because you never […]

A Little Further Down The Rabbit Hole: Part 5

I was rushing through the last post. I feel like I blocked many of my memories from that surgery because of the pain that I experienced immediately afterward. I must add an addendum to the people that came to visit me for “Thanksgiving Star Wars in the Hospital day”. Two family friends came to visit […]

A Little Further Down The Rabbit Hole: Part 4

Sometimes our downfalls come from the very same reasons that people call us heroes. If you push too far or too hard, you can ruin everything that you have worked for. I have learned first-hand, that there is a very fine line between heroism and surviving. Sometimes we learn these lessons the hard way, pushing just […]

A Little Further Down The Rabbit Hole: Part 3

I have been asked many times in my life if given the chance, would I change all that I have been through just to be normal and pain-free. My answer has ALWAYS been the same; a very adamant “NO!”. If I had not been given these wonderful rare chances to test my perseverance, I would […]

A Little Further Down the Rabbit Hole: Part 2

I feel like all of the miracles that I have experienced so far in my life, were due to my positive thoughts as well as my never-ending ability to believe in myself.  I didn’t realize it at the time, but the reason that I was able to come out of this battle with my head […]

A Little Further Down the Rabbit Hole: Part 1

  I didn’t start down this hippy path from birth. I have always been a hippy at heart, wanting to save the planet and the animals within it. I have always loved to hug trees and sit in a forest bathing in the energy that all the trees together, give off. I didn’t, however, grow […]